THERE'S ALWAYS THAT ONE THING WE WANT WAYYYYY TOO MUCH....
Have you ever wanted something a little TOO badly? GUILTY!!!!! I want and have wanted the same one thing for the last two and half years...
MY ...GOOD...MAN. You know, that man that comes gift wrapped with my name on him? The HUSBAND KIND? I'm writing this and I am ashamed. I wish it wasn't true. I wish my one BIG desire was more noble....more righteous, like...I dunno "WORLD PEACE" or "A HEART FOR THE LOST" or something but it's an EPIC FAIL where that's concerned. I honestly was never gonna write this post, but I think it might help somebody.
I wish my one BIG desire was more noble....more righteous, like...I dunno "WORLD PEACE" or "A HEART FOR THE LOST" or something.....
I actually typically feel condemned by that one insatiable longing. It feels idolatrous. I constantly bring it before God. I always have to submit it to Him in prayer, and in tears; sometimes in resignation. The point is, I put it before HIM. MY GOD. The One Who could actually help me, if I was to be helped.
In the midst of feeling pretty crappy that I haven't gotten to the place where meeting my husband isn't a priority in my mind, I read about Hannah in 1 Samuel chapter 1. She had an insatiable desire also; one she bore the weight of for a long, long time.She wanted to have a child. She had wished for a child for many, many years. That day she prayed and cried the entire time. I must admit, I've done that too. The praying, crying combo. I call it CRAYING.lol. but seriously, I do look pretty cray cray when I do it.
I've done that too. The praying, crying combo. I call it CRAYING..
The point is, Hannah took her pains and longings to God and eventually He answered her. His answer could have been "NO", also, but it just happened to be "YES" in this case. In chapter 2 of 1 Samuel she is able to rejoice in the fact that He comforted her.
Phil.4: 6 says:
"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done."
God hasn't said "YES" to my prayers yet, but I can say that every time I put my desires before Him, I receive comfort. Trust me, my prayers are NOT PRETTY. I complain, I whine, I cry, I give up, I apologize, I repent, I tell God how much I love Him and want Him to be my first love, I thank Him for hearing me and then I do it all again.
It may be a cycle, but God does hear "Hannah prayers".